if you know me, you know i proabably will never let you see me cry...my mama has seen my cry cause, well, she is my mama...one of my best friends andrea saw me cry oooh about 8 years ago..and that lasted for less than 5 minutes...
i guess i dont like to let folks see me get that vulnerable...as open as i am crying is too personal to me...crying takes me to a place i dont feel i can really share with anyone...i have no problem telling someone i cried, after the fact...its definitely something i feel i sould work on, letting my guard down...maybe one day...i told my boyfriend today he made me cry...well he made me tear up for a quick minute but i told him i cried so he would learn a lesson...and he did...i think i scared him when i told him that...
i do cry though...i wonder if i cry enough...is there a quota on tears? i dont like crying..i get a headache afterwards...
a really good book can make me cry or a really good movie...but i usually keep to myself during those moments...
i had a really good cry a couple days ago...tears tend to appear when im having a really deep talk with God...
i was feeling a little lost, helpless, lonely and overwhelmed the other day...pondering my purpose, wondering what my next step is supposed to be, asking Him for guidance...cause sometimes i just dont know which way to turn...asking Him for forgiveness, for mercy, for wisdom, for a sign, an answer...i reached out to God and pleaded for strength and the tears came down...
maybe i should cry more because as much as it hurt, it felt soo good
no headache this time
Awwwww (((BIG HUG)))
ReplyDeleteIm pretty much the same way. Crying shows that your weak but you know what Im starting to learn it helps to cry. I cryed for the first time last week to my bestfriend of 13 years and I believe it brought us e ven closer. I made me feel better to get it off my chest
ReplyDeleteI was asking someone that not to long ago "is it bad that I don't cry much"
ReplyDeletebut when I do I cry alone...I guess it's sort of a release for me. it feels good to cry when I do.
And I alwasy end up crying when talking to God, thanking Him for bring me through and asking for answers..He's the Man! LOL