blowin in the wind

been meaning to write for awhile...but my computer at home doesnt want to act right and then my work computer caught a cold...but im here...still chugging along...which is what has been on my mind...its almost november...i feel as if the world is moving aorund me andim stuck in slow-mo..i dont know why but its just feels as if time is whizzing by me...and feeling stuck...my routine...feels too routine..make any sense? i feel like life needs to be shakin up a little bit... and its funny i write this right after commenting on my girl's (she feel like my girl anyway) lol blog about God having a plan and guiding her life...she feels rushed at the moment, and for good reason, she has a lot going on in her life, lots of change...i feel like my life is just creeping along...and its not bad, i love my life, my family, my man, my dogs, my friends...i guess life just feels real regular...i do have things to look forward too..i guess im just ready for them to get here...im excited for homecoming this weekend...me and my girls just having a great time, going out, looking cute..seeing folks i havent seen in a few years...and my trip to vegas for our two year anniversary...im letting him plan everything, so im excited about what we are going to do...i know it will be fun, we always have a good time... hopefully ill be going home at the beginning of the year...its time he met mom and dad...lol..actually, its past time, huh? but i dunno...i dont feel bored really...i just dont feel inspired...or creative..i spend so much time working and paying bills...you know, real life stuff, i dont feel that creative energy that used to have me bouncing off the walls...and i miss it...i feel slightly off center...like im neglecting pieces of myself because i have to focus on the day to day things... im sure i will figure it out...time will tell..

focus on me

So..i saw this on Eb's blog..and i knew i had to do it...enjoy me!

I am not: transparent
I hear: my thoughts
I regret: not listening to myself when i was younger
I care: about my inner circle
I long to: make an impact
I feel alone: less and less
I hide: most of my thoughts
I drive: with lil wayne in my cd player
I sing: because im happy?
I dance: around my apartment
I write: because i know no other way
I breathe: because im blessed
I play: spades when i get the chance
I miss: hearing my daddy play the piano in the middle of the night
I search: then i stop myself and pray for guidance
I say: what i need to say, when i need to say it
I feel: loved
I succeed(ed): by growing
I fail(ed): when i stifle my dreams
I dream: of having it all
I sleep: peacefully
I wonder: whats next
I want: joy and wisdom
I worry: that i want too much
I have: to stay on the treadmill until homecoming
I give: all i can offer
I fight: to be understood
I am: my mother's daughter
I can’t: believe vitamin water has 125 calories
I stay: relaxed
I will: keep it pushin
I can: be too blunt
I would: like to travel all over the world
I might: try some more recipes i saw on the food network
I like: sitting in the jacuzzi with a glass of champagne
I love: the smell of his cologne
I smile: when my dog humps her stuffed bear
I frown: when im underestimated
I read: too much news
I work: to play

the randomness

i was having some random conversation the other week and i was asked whats my favorite food...i like so many things i couldnt even come up with anything at that moment...too bad starch isnt a food group...it hit me a few days later...

i LOVE potatoes...i can eat potatoes every day...i dont, but i could...french fried, baked, mashed, twice baked, chips, red, yellow, new, garlic...yeah, see where im going with this?

i love potatoes...give me a baked potato topped with veggies, cheese, butter and Lawry's and i good to go....of course i take all the health out of a potato when i put all that on it...so i dont let myself eat them like that as often as i really want to...

ok, so that was my ode to the potato...real random...i think im hungry actually...

its still in the low hundreds during the day out here, hot but not humid, so not too bad...at night its soo nice though...its perfect jacuzzi weather....its great to get off work and head for the jacuzzi with a nice glass of wine...the sky is pretty clear out here so sitting back and just looking in the sky and relaxing is soo...perfect...nights like that there are no worries, just good times...

im still trying to get my fitness on so i can look hot for homecoming...im doing OK, the knees are hurting a little from the high incline i set the treadmill on so i find myself taking more days off than id like...but i have to take care of my knees so that i can exercise properly without injuring myself...im still fly so if i dont make my goal ill be good...im a good size anyway...i really dont need to go down anymore sizes...so who knows...time will tell...

not much going on over here in the desert, just watching the foodnetwork and waiting for football season to be over...anything, new, interesting or exciting around your way?