Random Thoughts....

i have been a volunteer for this mentoring program for the past few months...the program is for girls ages 11-14, most of the girls go to my church...they are typical girls, they think they know more than they do about life, a couple of them have that "im hard" facade and a few others are just really sweet and prissy...i think since we have only been meeting once a month they havent gotten used to the volunteers which is cool cause i know i dont know half of their names yet...but i was assigned my mentee this weekend, actually she picked me...im kinda of flattered cause this girl does not need a mentor, she seems to be so on point and is probably the most talkative girl in the group...she is a freshamn in high school, and is in cheerleading and really involved in school activities...i look at her and see me when i was her age...and i know that when i was in high school i was not the one to be around but i knew how to keep my evil side at the house...i bet my mama thought i was the biggest bitch ...and i was...but i just hope i dont corrupt this girl...cause i sure could teach her some of the wrong things and then have her mama coming after me...put i am also pretty sure i can teach her some good things too and maybe she can bypass some of the situations i put myself in while i was growing up...but im going to call her today and maybe we can get together after the holidays and chill....

mental spasm: why do people insist on driving up and down the aisles at the wal-mart? i mean its wal-mart, wal-mart is always packed so why are you in my way driving in circles? i hate trying to go down an aisle and i have to brake cause some car in front of me thinks a car is about to leave....ummm, they are still walking to their car, why are you stopped? i mean i love parking close but if i go up and down a couple aisles and dont see anything im bout to park...i could probably use the exercise and ive noticed that some of those folks driving could use it too....im not about to backtrack down the previous aisle, i could be in and out before i even find a close spot...

i took my lovely self on a date this weekend, i took myself to the movies to go see Ray...i even bought myself popcorn and a pop, which is better than most dates i go on with those random men i call myself going out with from time to time...when i lived in atlanta i would insist on going to the Backlot cause they served you dinner while you watched the movie, for some reason guys dont like to but popcorn....so i thought fine, they can buy me a whole damn dinner...i always got the shrimp basket....anyways....i took myself to the movies, this was the first time ive done that and it was cool, i really enjoyed myself, i didnt feel lonely or pitiful like i thought i might actually i felt pretty independent....in college i would have never gone anywhere by myself, but now i take myself out to eat and i just really chill with me and its cool...why should i wait on someone to take me out, shit, i have a car and some gas and a little money in my pocket, ill go by my damn self, its less complicated that way and i get to see the movie before it shows up at blockbuster...