Gone til November....well July anyway

Yes Ms. Spelangel is going to Reno, Nevada.....
Last Wednesday I got a call from the Maynard Institute telling me that they have a spot open in their copyediting program and asked if i would like it...umm, i was like yes i would....ive been wanting to get into that program ever since i heard about it but i didnt think it was going to happen...well long story short it happened, and all i have to do is pay for my flight....i talked to my bosses and they were willing to let me go for six weeks to the program and they are giving me a weekly stipend....
so i have been rushing to get everything together for my trip...i have to be in reno by tuesday...i have been frustrated on how i am gong to pay my bills and my flight and all the other details needed for my trip...ive been rushing but its feels good to finally look my future in the eye....i have so many high hopes for myself after this program....it was something i wanted and they called me and asked me to be involved...
i believe that when something is placed into your lap and it is that something that u have dreamed of you have the responsilibity to do everything witihn your power to make it happen...i know that this fellowship program will open many doors for me and although i am nervous i am ready for the challenge....
everything is falling into place....so while i do have to give up a few things i think the outcome is worth all the effort....

Pretty Spring Tulips...

Catch 22...

OMG, i kinda feel like crying...i get like this sometimes though...i probably do need a good cry...im at work listening to msnbc...the case in Illinois about the two little girls who were found dead...well the dad of one of the girls confessed to killling both girls because one girl, his daughter, supposedly took some money from her mother....she was 8 i believe....he stabbed one girl 11 times and the other girl i think 6 times, correct me if im wrong...he stabbed one girl in the abdomen, chest and BOTH EYES among other place......why? just why?....
things like this just fuck with me.....i just get angry and i get sad cause shyt like this is just not fair...those little girls never deserved that....no one does....death/killing is something i will never understand....
my job at work is to get on our associated press wire service and pick state, nation, and world stories that will go in that day's paper...and i swear everyday i read about someone getting murdered or some other type of tragedy...and i will never ever get used to all the ways i see death written about....
there was a story i checked out about a woman in her 80's being mauled by 2 big dogs, the woman is now in a coma....in the beginning the story was 2 stray dogs had gotten in the house from a door left opened and they attacked the woman....i sat and watched for a couple days as more detail was added to the story....and today, the woman's daughter and husband were charged with letting their two dogs attack the woman....WHAT?...the old woman was on oxygen, already sick and then damn she gets attacked by two dogs and her daughter is responsible?....WTF? thing is, i know this story isnt over...and i know im going to have to read more details...and i dont want to...
i like my job, i usually enjoy coming to work..yes i want to move on to bigger things, when the time is right for me and the opportunity presents itself...i like having "editor" as part of my job title....but damn...i swear everyday its some car accident or some rape, some murder, some little kid kidnapped or left for dead...and that shyt is heart breaking....i try to leave the job at the job but does that ever really happen with anyone?....sometimes i just want to be ignorant of whats going on, but its too late now...my eyes have been opened....life can be taken just like that....
and i cant do a damn thing but read about it....i hate having to look at things from a news point of view, push my personal self to the back and think about what will sell, what will get folks to buy papers...and guess what, its all the stuff that has me sitting here typing this....the stuff that i wish i didnt have to read.....and the stuff that pays my bills....

Get More Pleasure in Your Life

Have sex-à deux, or alone.
From ancient Roman times to the prudish Victorian era there actually was a name for the illness women got from not having enough sex: hysteria. The honest-to-goodness cure was called medical masturbation, and doctors invented the vibrator to make it easier. Since then, scientists have figured out why it works: An orgasm boosts levels of estrogen, which lifts our moods, and endorphins, which are natural painkillers and depression fighters. So if you have symptoms of crabbiness, overwrought emotions, crying fits, and a high-strung, nervous constitution, follow doctor's orders: Have an orgasm. Repeat if necessary.



i got this from an article i was reading on the prevention mag website....i was really feeling this little piece of it....ill link the rest of the article within the next few days, it actually has some good ideas for when you need some "Me Time"......

What Age Do Y ou Act?

You Are 24 Years Old

24 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

time to dejunk

life is good....im happy, im healthy.....and while i could use a raise, im not complaining too much....been trying to will myself to deep clean my apartment....i mean besides the usual vacuming and dishes and hitting up the bathroom i want to dust the windex the windows and throw out junk not needed, maybe take some clothes to the goodwill and clean out my closets....just dejunk (is that a word) my life...i think ill start today and try and wrk through the weekend...
its also time to dejunk this blog...people have deleted their blogs, or havent written more than one entry or havent written in a few months and while i love reading these folks or know the folks on a personal level and love them i just dont see the point of having links to blogs that arent really active anymore...so i believe i am going to delete a few...maybe add some different folks ive come across lately....
okay im going to clean up now....bbs.....




btw......this mariah, i mean mimi, cd is HOT.......good clean up music....