heavy...

i was talking with my best friend drea today...thats my girl...love her to death...we hadnt talked in about a week so we had to catch up...not that much is goin on in my life but she doesnt mind hearing about the mundane stuff either....
so i was asking her about her weekend and she goes on to tell me that her and a group of friends went to a pool party given by a friend of her good friend and while the party 4 of the guys that came with her group left the party with the sister of her firends friend...folllow me...well the sister is slightly mentally challenged and the guys drove off with the girl and pretty much raped her..because of the disability the girl came back to the party and didnt really realize that she had been violated...my girl drove home with these dudes...i guess the next day the sister wakes up and cant walk and her family takes her to the hospital where she finally tells the family what happened...
drea tells me we went to school with these guys and she has been hanging out with them since she moved to the east coast a few years ago...she is shocked cause she never would have thought that these guys would do something like that...
she is supposed to hang with them this weekend but decided to back out..she cant tell them that she knows what went down just yet...well until the police do their thing and she doesnt want to hang with the dudes knowing they did something so horrible cause she cant keep her mouth shut and will go off and that might spoil the investigation...
i was sitting there like da hell...i was blown away, like wow i cant believe this mess...i am so glad those guys never laid a hand on my girl but i feel so bad for this woman that they took advantage of....

so then we started talking about some of the random, dangerous and dumb stuff we did while we were in school....
this one time i think junior or senior year....well i dont really remember....my friends think some guy drugged my drink cause i hadnt drank very much that night (not even one whole glass) and i cant remember hardly anything...but i dunno and since i cant remember anything whose to say...i do remember getting out of a car (it mights been mine) at a house with a bunch of steps...i remember a guy picking me up fireman style, and dropping me on my head, i remember thinkgin damn that didnt even hurt...i remember drea saying we had to leave and them getting me out of the house...aint that crazy? i dont remember driving to the house, if i drove, or even going into the house, i dont remember anything before hitting my head, i dont even remember the guys or how many guys... things coulda popped off that night and i wouldnt have known...
i remember one time 3 of us jumped in this mans car at the drive through cause the taco bell was closed and we wee hungry...he let us order and dropped us off on campus...but he coulda pulled off and took us somewhere and did God's knows what...
i also remember while we were in the car one of my girls took my other girl's pocket knife, got out the car and ran up on the car of guys in front of us screaming with the knife in her hand scaring them..they could pulled out a gun and shot her...
drea said we have been lucky, im like naw, we have been blessed...obviously we were supposed to be on earth a little while longer...
numerous times we walked around the west end at like 2 or 3 in the morning...with only our room key and some ID...
i wont even get into more of the stoopid stuff we did, cause yall might wanna slap me through the computer...im just glad im still here...
we did a lot of stoopid stuff without thinking about consequences or safety...

im glad ive grown up a little...far from grown but ive grown up....now me and the girls are all in different parts of the u.s. but we have are mutual experiences to keep us together...and we can remind each other of stuff we did just in case we are about to get ourselves in a situation...
even though i had to hear that sad story about her friends sister im glad i got a chance to talk to my girl...


random:
-i used a new shampoo and gloss today on my hair, its really working well...
-the only coast i havent lived on is the east coast i think that will be my next move, if i dont go south again...
-main reaso i want to move it to at least be near one of my girls...
-i need to paint my toenails...
-i need to review my notes from my copyediting fellowship....my brain feels like it needs a refresher...
-i notice i dont fight for relationships...wondering if i should fight more often?
-to buy blush or not to buy blush?
-the mary kay lady wants me to sell mary kay..i cant wait to tell her that stuff made my skin feel all nasty...
-men are crazy...
-women are crazy too...
-i got a lot of work to do tomorrow, think ill come in a couple hours early...
-so i can leave a couple hours early...
-i need to learn to say im sorry...thats hard for me to do...
-im so damn stubborn...
-ill work on it...
-im lookin good today...
-real good...
-midol is the shyt...
-ive watched madea goes to jail 4 times in the past week...
-and ive cried twice...
-at the same part
-be patient with me...God is not through with me yet..