Jack-O and other thoughts...

first i have to get this off my chest...i am SOOO over the michael jackson coverage....
we all know he is a little different...
we all know he has some issues....
we all know he went from a nice grande whole milk cafe mocha to a vente vanilla latte w/ skim milk...(yes that is starbuck's lingo)
we all still love Thriller and Off the Wall (im assuming)...
we all know the fam is a little "special"...
we have all seen the Jackson movie (another assumtion)...
we all know that chillin with little boys in bed is suspect....carrying around a monkey was also weird...
im just tired...i dont want to hear anymore...all this overkill information about the case on CNN and MSNBC and every other media outlet is getting on my last nerve....this trial might last for a good year...so chill, wait let it go...

remember Whitley's mantra on A different World...."Relax, Relate, Release"....u can even do the silly ass arm movements she used to do...whatever just do sumthin to get this michael kick out the system...


NOW BACK TO MY FAV SUBJECT - ME:

i have put the damn diet to rest....i have lost a few pounds...but more importantly i have learned how to eat better and make wiser food choices....and i have also learned that fat free, sugar free Jell-O chocolate pudding is really goood....(and please no more cosby talk, im iggin anymore cosby talk...Jimi, i love ya but i aint reading about the coz no more, lol, i know u dont really givva fuk bout what the hell i do, but hey...) so anyway...i have reaquainted myself with the gym and have gotten real good at pickin out fresh fruits and veggies...im still working on drinking more water throughout the day...but as far as that diet goes...it can kiss my ass....

sidenote: My, MsInstyle i deleted it, dont know why i had saved it...but its gone now...no more looking back over my shoulder....i aint running from stuff no more....im now doing a graceful dance down the street like Diana Ross did in The Wiz, only a little slower and with a better outfit...and my "Get'em girl" heels....thanks sis....thanks for telling your story....

Sevens.....miss u girl....glad we have started emailing during the day....

so i decided to get little pieces of my life together..i spent saturday regrouping...after i went to my mentor session with the group of girls i volunteer with....i went to Borders and bought a GRE book....and then i went home and organzined my office/library (actually bedroom number 2 of my apt)...and u know after filing all my papers and going around the house gathering books and magazines and puttingthem in their proper places, and vacuuming...i felt a lot clearer....

sidenote: i think vacuuming is a cure all...the repetitive movements and the loud noise not allowing u to concentrate on anything else....i added a little of that stuff u sprinkle on your carpet to make it smell good....

i also decided to get out more....i emailed a few places to volunteer at..like this local theatre, they are having yusef komanyacha (sp) he was a poet during the black arts era...and then they r showing the "Autobiography of Miss Jane Pittman" later this week...so, why not see the stuff i really want to see for free by volunteering?....

i am really happy right now...i mean i spent all last week worrying about my future..but this is a new week and im going to start it off right....by letting life flow and getting caught up in all the good things.....

church was SOOO powerful yesterday....i mean i felt truly blessed to witness the effect that God can have on people's lives, i havent cried so much in a while....after the benediction..i went up to see my friend who plays bass for the choir and is an asst, minister...we started the church newsletter together and we always try to arrange a schedule after church real quick to meet about the newsletter...sometimes a bunch of us will get together and have sunday dinner at his house....anyway...i went up to him , and all he could do was reach over and hug me...and it was a good kind of hug, a hug from happiness and witnessing the spirit in others...now, yall, dont go assuming anything, he has a fiance....its just that he has become a good friend to me since ive moved here...and we have had some very enlightening conversations...he has helped me on my spiritual journey (im struggling forreal)...and i really value his friendship....

"flatter me, and i may not believe you; criticize me and i may not like you; ignore me and i may not forgive you; encourage me and i may not forget you"
-dont know who wrote this, but if u do let me know....